Change is harrrrrrrd.

Who likes change? I mean REALLY likes it? Okay, I get how change can be for the better, and can make you happier in the long run; but while it's happening, change gets two thumbs down in my book. It is sooooo hard. I have had a lot of changes within the past few months; within the past while actually. Marriage, moving twice (coast to coast), starting a new business WITH my hubby (tough on the romance), new faces, new people, new responsibilities; you get the picture. It's sad to say, but I've had a bad attitude about life lately. I'm not satisfied with the me I am right now. I realize that I can't keep placing the blame on these changes anymore. I've got to.... here's that word again... CHANGE myself. Yipes! It's not going to be easy folks, it's just not. I've compiled a list of goals for me, and for anyone else struggling with this. These goals are going to help push us up the hill of change, slide down to the other side, and land in a place called "contentment".

• Be kind to yourself. Push out those negative thoughts that tell you you're not good enough. You deserve happiness. Stand up to the bully in your own mind.
• Be passionate. Find something you love to do. Don't be afraid to try new things, failure does not exist in your mind anymore.
• Don't wait for others to make you happy. It is not the job of a husband, wife, friend, parent, sibling, or pet to make you happy, it's yours.
• Go for a run, jog, or walk. You won't regret it, I promise. Push yourself a little; make yourself proud.
• Let go of the past. Not only the bad, but the good too. Don't get lost in yesteryear. Cherish sweet memories, but don't wish to go back. Instead, plan to make memories today, and choose to be happy.
• Last of all: fake it til you make it. Change is hard, it takes time. It will not happen right away, so smile when you feel like crying, laugh at your mistakes, and keep pushing forward.

Ready.... set...... GO!

Easter Dreams Do Come True!

Okay, I brag about my husband a lot, but I can't help it! He truly is the best thing that has ever happened to me! Let me tell you a little story of how he made my Easter dreams come true.

Earlier this month Justin and I were at the grocery store and noticed all of the Easter stuff out. I got a sad look on my face as I told him this would be my very first year without an Easter egg hunt (Funny, I know. My mom does one every year, even for the big kids!). I didn't say anything else about it after that. Then last night as we were going to sleep I jokingly asked him if the Easter bunny was going to visit us. He just laughed it off, and so did I.  My alarm woke me up this morning. I rubbed my sleepy eyes and sat up. I was shocked at what I saw... an Easter Basket! It had all of my favorite candy in it too! I looked around and noticed a few little Easter eggs peeping out at me. I excitedly woke Justin up. He pretended like he didn't know what was going on. I was so excited and started running around our apartment looking for Easter eggs.

The candy was delicious, but nothing could compare to the sweetness of Justin's surprise. I know it's so cheesy, but that's just who we are. And he makes me so, so happy!

Our Easter baskets. Well, Justin's is a bowl... but hey, it works!

Bittersweet

Life. It can change in an instant. It is mysterious and full of endless choices. It can be challenging and demanding. But life is wonderful. I have to remind myself of that every now and then. Justin and I thought we had our life planned out for the next five years, funny, I know. Because just when you think you've got it all outlined, things change. I can't go into much detail, but we found out this week, that at the end of June we will be leaving Boston.
We were both filled with such mixed emotions. We were planning on, and were emotionally attached to the idea of staying here and "starting our lives." I was kind of struggling with the idea of moving again because I was finally feeling comfortable here, and it was starting to feel like home. However, after a while I started to contemplate about what home really was. I realized that my home will always be wherever Justin is, and that everything else will work itself out (at the expense of Justin's nerves ;) ).
So, Justin and I have decided to enjoy our last few months here in Boston. I feel like I appreciate each day a little bit more. I look for more beauty around me, I try to be a bit more social because I know I will probably never see the people I know here ever again. In a way, I feel like I am living life more fully. My entire perspective of my daily life has been transformed, and I am grateful.

Out and about, enjoying nature!

Love this Guy!